This whole MTC is soooo hard!

Well Hi there sis, mom, and dad. I'm only writing you now because this is our P day so don't be all sad that I haven't wrote you yet haha. um to start off it's going great! Also if you want to just like forward anything that's in here to everyone that would be super cool, Butttttttt ya to start off I got into the MTC on Wednesday? sooo also I forgot so when everyone was dropping me off at the MTC I guess that David Archeleta??? if that's how you spell it was at the car right in front of us so that's cool :). 

Alright so you walk in and all these missionary people are like here this... also take this... also you look great... also take this and go find your room........ and I'm just standing there looking around this tiny class room the only one in here like.... 0.o "hello.. anyone home." About 10 mins later this teacher walks in, Her name's sister R. SHE'S SOOOOO GOOD. We started talking about like where are you from, hows the mission so hard and everything you could ever want to know about someone in 10 mins. And all this time I'm just sitting there like, "What did i just do when I got out of that car?". After that the first person I met was Elder T.  A little while after that another elder walks in named Elder N.. HES MY COMPANION!!!! and we talk for a little bit. He's from Payson Utah and graduated 2 years ago I think. But we started to get along super good. um after that came Elder F. we're not the best of friends but we get along fairly well. He's from Utah also I think in Lindon or something?  Then came in these 2 sisters ones name is Sister T and the other one is Sister Johnson and they're both like tunnel vision won't say a word to us. Kind of like ya hi we're here we also live in Utah around Eagle mountain. Also everyone in my district is going to Alabama, other then Sister J and Sister B. So Sister B comes in like 3 hours late, she's from Arizona and she seems like kind of down to earth. So far everyone else is like the Gospel is like the best thing in the world and like if you don't have it you're evil and its my job to get out there now like. The only reason we're here is to go teach people so this MTC thing is easy and stuff. and I'm sitting here like HOLY CRAP..... what did i just get myself into. That's kind of how my first day went. Right after we all got to meet each other we had class for like 4 hours............ :/ and were just like learning about what to expect here and like rules and stuff, it was ruff..... after like 10 hour of listening to people and devotionals we get to bed. I'm sitting on my bed top bunk there's 4 people in my room, and I'm like soooo I sleep with a fan is that cool with everyone? And they're all like "ya sweet, do it, I love sleeping with a fan." I WAS SO HAPPY! I was like WHATTTT you guys too?? We all started talking way more and having fun. hahaha

I guess the next few days are all going to be summed up here. THE SINGLE MENTALLY UNSTABLE 6 DAYS OF MY LIFE. This whole MTC is soooo hard. its not like physically hard but its just soooooo hard. I've cried more in the last 6 days then I think I ever have before. The goal of the MTC is to just KILL, BREAK, BEAT YOUR BRAIN and SOUL into a humble state. I've never felt so helpless my entire life. We have class for 9 hours a day here + we have study for about 5 hours. All you do is work in the scriptures and preach my gospel. I've had the HARDEST time that I've every had before trying to learn all of it. It wasn't till about the 3rd day when I just started balling my eyes out in class because of the spirit that this place has. It wasn't till I prayed, prayed to god for the fist time in a long time from the bottom of my soul and just cried to Him. I knelt down on my knees and just cried and just asked God for help. I said "God I can't do this alone.... I need some help. I've put 3 days in and I'm ready to go" 

I've never felt a stronger spirit in my entire life. I felt like I would get crushed it hit me so hard. I understood for my self that without you having faith in God and putting in the work here. This MTC was set up to to where it DESTROYED ME. I just can't even put into words how hard this is for me, but I cant bring myself to leave. I push myself as hard as I can to learn all I can. So that I can know for myself. So for the next 2 years I can say that I KNOW... GOD LOVES ME. I KNOW THAT HE DIED FOR ME, AND MADE A WAY FOR ME TO COME BACK TO LIVE WITH HIM, AN THAT I KNOW THAT GOD WILL ALWAYS BE THERE WHEN YOU NEED HIM MOST. 

hmmmmmmm its hard for me to put into words everything I've felt here. Its not all hard also. Its soooo much fun here now hahaha. Me and Sister B are like best est friends ever. She's so much like Shea. We just tease and mess with each other all the time. I also relate to her the most. We both came out here not really knowing what we were doing and have both grown so close to God and each other. We're way good friends haha. That's all I can make myself say. I hope that all you kiddies reading this are like crying right now, thinking like heck Landon why do you do this to yourself come back.. we miss you. I'm having some of the best days of my life out here. I would love nothing more than to come live back home and hang out with everyone, but I cant right now. I can't bring myself to leave everything, that I've learned to think that I might have not met these people. 

It just kills me to think about that. Sooooooo too bad for you all I'm going to stay out here for 2 years. bwahahaha. But just know that I miss you all sooooo much. I pray for you. I think about you. I love you guys more then I could ever tell you in a letter or an email. But just know that whatever happens in the next 2 years I'll always remember you guys and love you. 

Well I could write for days, and I'm not kidding DAYSSSS if I had the energy and time to do it. So I'll finish up here fast. PLEASE just write me anything. The Sisters get like 10 letters a day I swear and same with all my other elders. Only me and Sister B don't get letters, we both got one yesterday saying WHY HAVE YOU NOT WRITTEN US YET...... I'll write all of you!

WELL I love you guys miss yaaaaa

LOVE ELDER ALABAMA er ALDANA

P.S. feel free to email me. We get a letter every time you email us so. ya email me please I want to hear about how much all of you are crying, and also for Mama I don't have your email so someone email this to mom.... Shea plz 

so the pictures-  Elder N is the one in with in the second picture? we look like were dating or something haha

 Sister Burup is the taller girl on the far left? in the red dress. sister Troter is the one in the white dress and sister Johnson is in green one? Elder Farr is the other elder in a grey suite and elder Tanton is the other guy you don't know.