So this week was different, but first off did a Reverent
Beane call you? He is a fellow that we’re friends with and have helped out a little
bit and he was like, "WHATS YOUR MOMS NUMBER, I want to call her and talk
with her" so I gave him the house phone :) he’s super funny. He’s 87 so if
he sounds like he can’t hear you he probably can’t.
So this week we went to a Pentecostal church on Friday. It
was something else, it was for Easter and I was just sitting there with my
companion like.... we’re not in a Mormon church anymore... haha it was
interesting, something that I’ve never been able to go to but it was fun and
interesting. I don’t think that I’m going to be going to another one but it was
fun to go and sit with the founder of the church and be good friends with him.
I think that this week has been one of the weeks that I have
felt the strongest that I was in the right place. So this week was like a super
hard week for me, not in a work way but in a way that I was feeling. So this
week there were about 2 people that we were teaching that lost their jobs, and
one of those 2 found out her son might have Asperger’s. One family we are teaching
just found out that their father was in the hospital. It was just like a hard
week on a lot of people and for the first time I think that I’ve started to see
how God feels for us.
For the longest time down here I think that I’ve always done
my best to just love the people no matter what. I’ve tried to think that no
matter what the person says to me that I would try and love them as much as I
love my family. And this week I feel like I felt the pain of everyone. We have
been focused a lot on Jesus this week being that’s its Easter and all, but for
the first time in a long time I just sat down and we watched a video about Jesus
and everything that he has done for us.
He’s the comforter, the shepherd, our savior. He feels
EVERYTHING that we feel. This week I felt like I was right with the people that
were going through hard times in their life. I felt so hopeless, that I wanted
to do everything that I could for them but I could not do anything with them, I
was one of the first times that I just felt sad and kind of beat down. I can’t
say how I felt but it was like thinking about someone that I loved more than
anything, like mom or dad. And watching them go through one of the hardest
times in their life. And just having to sit there and watch.
It tore me to shreds. All this time I’ve been having a great
time out here talking with people and getting to know them better and making friends
with soooo many people. And then this week just going around and seeing all of
these bad things happen to them. It’s something that I never thought was going
to happen. It was one of the first times that I was thinking to myself, WAIT,
there is something that I can do for them.
Last week was one of the first times that I just got down on
my knees and I just cryed to God that everything that was going wrong for these
people, my friends, that it would work out in the end. I’ve always thought of people to pray for when I’m asked to, but this
was different. It was like was praying about the person that I loved the most. I
didn’t just pray not thinking that anything was going to happen. It was one of
the first times that I was thinking, I can’t do anything, and I know that you
are the only person that is going to be able to help these people. Please help
them! And it was the only thing that I could do for them.
Just yesterday I was able to talk with one of the lady’s
that had lost her job. She’s having a hard time this week just doing all sorts
of things but she got a job and is able to work, so she’s not just right back
to being happy and normal, but everything is going to work out for her. I just can’t
even write how weird that it is. It’s like doing something for the first time
that you have done before, but this time it works and you are able to help out
even if you were not there helping.
Anyway prayer works. It’s
what keeps me going out here all the time. It stinks to think that if I had
learned how to pray for reals before I left that it would have helped out
sooooo much.:) I’m glad that I was able to learn for myself all that I can do
with prayer. I don’t think that I could have learned any other way other than
by doing it out of love for the people that are down here. I LOVE ALABAMA :)